Im on the verge of breaking down. Period. Till Im taking excess salt again like a drug addict...
Reasons:-
1) Stress for trials
2) Stress for the future
3) I lost my laptop
4) I've a small child of 13 weeks who is under my 100% complete responsibility
5) My parents think I spend too much time on the BB Evangelical Play
6) The BB folks think I'm not giving my all
7) I'm giving the play 150% and they think its not enough and I get yelled at...
8) I sleep from 3am-6am. EVERY NIGHT!!!
9) An unbelievable b*itch thinks I am very free for a form 5 and says I dont need to study (Go to HELL, woman!)
10) I got myself tied up with an equally annoying b*itch to help my friend
and many more.... i think 10 is enough for you right now....
And in all this, not getting any help at all. But God has been listening to my prayers and has been helping me, by keeping me alive all this while. I can't believe I got sick so many times and didn't die. The Lord saw me through and still Is.
But Lord, if I could be selfish for this one time.... since no one really cares if I am (still) sick or not, can I please have a boyfriend to help me through all this? I want someone to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright. And I want someone to buy me chocolates cuz buying chocolates for myself is not romantic at all. Nor is it comforting at times.....
